Saber came down to see me last weekend which was wonderful! There are both pros and cons to having a long distance relationship, and I am really trying hard not to focus on the cons. But I really miss him sometimes. I don't know which I prefer, falling asleep with him beside me, or waking up with him beside me.

Yes. I'm a soppy git. I know.


But! I have something to look forward to! He will be coming down to see me again on the 13th and he will be staying longer than just a weekend this time! *dances*



Went to the Manchester meet today. Was nothing special really, I mainly hung out with close friends and didn't really socialise much. Ah well, Rock World tonight! I gets to dance lots! Woooooo!!!!

I have a FenRa in my room. He is pretending to be an alien blob thing and is eating things in my room! 0.0



I'm afraid..... SAVE ME!!!

CARDIFF!!!



Here Be Monsters!



Going clubbing with Kast and Leon tonight, should be fun. *Boogies*

Yeah, emo post ahoy.


I find myself at a crossroads, but I am unable to move. I have this life that is such a gift given to me, and what have I done with it? Seriously? I have done fuck all. And despite having all these ideas and dreams and goals, I am no where near close to achieving them. I thought that going back to college would be a good step up to getting into University, but it's just making me miserable. I feel like I'm back in high school again. Once again I am the odd one out. I just don't fit in, and I'm back to being bullied. Not physically, thank god, but words can still hurt. A lot. I know it is only two days a week. But it is two full days. Two full days of being mocked and ridiculed.

Oh yeah, and by the way. This is an adult class, I'm not dealing with petty teenagers here.

On top of that, I don't think I am ever going to get out of Manchester. I hate this city. It has far too many bad memories for me, and it just seems to be sapping all my energy and my will to simply give a shit anymore.

I guess it doesn't help that I am always fucking ill these days. My immune system seems to have plummeted and I am getting every virus going. I haven't been eating properly, because in all honesty I can't. I have suddenly lost all interest in food. I don't even want to cook, something that always used to give me such joy.

I find myself just laying in bed and staring at the ceiling. I don't want to see anyone, and yet I am painfully lonely. Sometimes I won't feel anything at all. Other days I feel too much. Too many different emotions all at the same time, usually accompanied by raging headaches and fits of nausea.

I am so sorry guys. I know that this isn't the kind of thing you want to be reading. I know that I should just keep this shit to myself. I want to be there for everyone else. I want to be the strong one. The one who helps you up when you fall. But I can't. I can't do it anymore guys. I'm so sorry.

Okies, at first I was wanting to do something such as a charity fursuit/cosplay walk, but I didn't get many people interested unfortunately (Although if you are reading this post now and would like to do something like that, please let me know, as it's still something I'd like to do)so, I thought I would do something just myself. Something that I wouldn't enjoy and that I know I would find difficult. For two weeks for charity, I will live off a strict vegetarian diet. To you it may not sound that hard, but I am a big meat eater. I have meat for both lunch and dinner (sometimes breakfast) every day. I love the stuff. If I could survive on just meat, I probably would!

It would be wonderful if readers of my journal could sponsor me, and/or send me vegetarian recipes as I have no idea where to start! 0.0

I AM SMILING, DAMNIT!!!

No, really I am! I am still horrendously ill and my hair is starting to turn into an uncontrollable mass of curls, but I'm smiling!

Hey, what can I say... life is good!

I am currently laying in bed chatting to Gryphon, eating jelly beans and giggling at silly things on youtube. Also making big plans to take over the world.

There you go, Janner! <3

Well, the lurgy finally got me. It was only a matter of time I suppose. I have had the light sniffles for a week or two now, but this morning I woke up and felt like the entire world had landed on my head!
Bloody chesty cough, weezing, swollen glands and I sound like an old ladywith a through full of dust. Bah!

I neeeed to get better for this weekend, as it is the London meet and I want to be all chipper and happy to see friends I haven't hung out with for aaaaages, and of course i want to be all pretty and charming for my better half. That can NOT be done when you've turned a funny almost pale blue, your nose is bright red and your eyes won't stop streaming.

I don't think someone up there likes me very much.


On the upside, I have been doing loooooads of sketching for college, and have been looking into doing a foundation course next year at Kingston University. Does anybody go to that uni, or know of someone who goes? I have never every been to that area of London, so it would be nice to chat to someone who know's a bit about the place. There's only so much information you can find on the net it seems.

Also, I should have a pretty, pretty picture for Sci on Saturday of his character all steam-punky! ^^ I am rather proud of what i've got so far actually. Needs a bit of tweaking, but I think that my art is actually getting quite spify these days!

I am working on signing up to some life drawing classes too, as the few we did at college didn't go too well, so i doubt we'll be doing them again. Aooarently some of the students think it's a little too "gay" to draw another man's naked form... >_<

Oh, another uni related question. Should I sign up to live in halls, or find myswlf a nice little flat? If some of you lovelies out there could give me the pro's and con's of both options I would be most grateful! <3

Right, I think that's my life ina nutshell right now! Wolf out!

Lets see if I can figure out this LJ cut thingy....


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Commission done for me by the wonderful OutKast

MY FURSUIT IS NOT SEXY!!!!!


Dear god fandom... sometimes you even break me!

It has been quite a long time since I have made a journal post. Mostly due to lack of internets and a good slice of couldn't be arsed-ness! :p
Quite a lot has been happening of late, some bad unfortunatly, butmostly good.
I am happily settled in my new house with Kiffy, Skapup, Evil Squirrel, Riot and FenRa and I must say I'm really enjoying living with them! LOVE YOU GUYS!

Apart from YOU, Kiffitz! For you are weak like paper mache! XP

EF was muchly fun and I got to see my Gryphon <3 See how well behaved I'm being? I'm not going into soppy git mode! :p But he is awesome, even though he threatens to make budgie voluvonts. *Pout*

AND! I got my fursuit at EF! Made my the glorious Albrecht! Much love goes to Captain Beard-Face!

Look at her! She's so CUTE!!!





In other news I have started college again doing art and design. Hopefully this should give me what i need to finally get to university. It is a one year course with an option to do an extra year if my skills still need brushing up a bit. So far I'm really enjoying it. Unforunatly most of the other students seem intent on turing it into a fashion course rather than fine art, but I'm willing to try my hand at anything.

Medical stuff has been pretty much sorted, so even though I cannot fix my stupid crap broken body, I can at least ease some of the pain and I am taking steps to getting most of the majpr problems delt with. Which to be honest is a massive relief and I am rather cross with myself for being so stubborn and putting it off for so long. I guess I was just scared.

Not sure what else to put here, other than I am considering going to the next London fur meet as it has been a long while since I have seen the London lot, and I have a dastardly plan to drag Bird-Face with me too. I wants to see the war musuem, damnit! It's prob much bigger ansd flashier than the one in Manchester!

Also thinking of attending RBW, as Sci has kindly said I can share his table. Might be worth the trip. Hmmmmm.... *Ponders*

AAAAAAAARRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRGH!!!!!!!!

*Wails*


AAAAAAAAAAAHHHHHHHHHH!!!!


*Flails*


NO!!! NO NO NO!!!!! NOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOO!!!!


NOT FAIR!


NOT DAMN FAIR!!!!




I should just stop having favourite characters. *Cries*

I hope you have a lovely day huni *cuddles* Sorry your birthday art isn't ready yet >_< It will hopefully be finished by tomorrow!

I hope you have a fantastic day huni! Eat lots of cake and make M your personal slave for the day! ^^


Oh, and here's your birthday present! I hope you like it huni! *cuddles*



http://swashbuckled.deviantart.com/art/Happy-Birthday-Sangluna-129902479

"If the love within your mind is lost and you see other beings as enemies, then no matter how much knowledge or education or material comfort you have, only suffering and confusion will ensue." - H.H. The 14th Dalai Lama

A very very happy birthday to my most favourite yena, Samia! Have a good one huni! xxx

This would have been earlier, but I was late for work, so much rushing was done! >_<


A massive Happy Birthday to Ember!!!


I hope you had a great day Lizard-Floof! xxx

The Wolf is going to Eurofurence thanks to the wonderful, beautiful Ska Pup and Kiffy Lee! Thankies soooo much for pointing me in the direction of that ticket huni, an e-mail has been sent! And thanks to Kiffy for letting me take the remaining seat in his car! *FF7 Triumph Music*

I shall be sending out my ductape dummy to the fantastical Albrect again on Monday, and hopefully it will get there this time *panics* and all going to plan I should have the Little Wolf suit in time for EF *fingers crossed and sends cookies, cup cakes and hot tea to the kitty*

AAAAAAAHHHHHHHHHHHHHHH I CAN'T WAIT!!!! *dance*


So... *ahem* Who else is going? :3